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Most of the time, its just so hard for me to sit and take.
Almost everything that happens at home is my fault!
I AM TRYING, but at the end of it all, I still get blamed.
Sometimes, even blamed for the things I dont even do.
Yelled, nagged, screamed at all the time! I'm so tired.
The least you could do is trust me, but you don't.
You don't even respect the things I do, be it basketball
or art etc. You are never happy, never! And it hurts me,
cause time and time again, I try to be a good sister,
daughter, friend, student, but at the end of it all, I'm
just nothing NOTHING!


I'm feeling rather emo now. And really LOST. It's been a really long time since I last felt this way. Today's been a mixture of feelings, this morning I'd no idea why but I felt rather lost in school, half the time I just kept thinking bout Ms Tan, I miss her already :( I miss last Friday's hanging-out-til-late with her, where we had so much of fun. That reminds me, Ms Tan! ESPLANADE! ):

Also, it strucked me hard how time is passing so very quickly and how I'm actually running out of time, when I received the prelim timetable today. I have so much to catch up, I have so much to study, I have so much of art to do, but yet, I'm not doing anything bout it! I'm so confused, I have alot to ask, I really need guidance. I really need to start now!

Frankly speaking, I'm really really really feeling so lost. Sometimes, I know what I should do. At times, it just seems so pointless and it makes me want to give up. I don't know whats happening, I dont know where I'm heading to. All I know is I'm happy spending time with the basketballers, plus a few other friends. I feel so much more at ease, and happier when I'm with them.


I'm never good enough.
I'm extremely tired, enough of art
I should get some rest, theres no school tmr.
E learning. I'm not really for it though, I don't
really think it's a good idea. Thank God its just
for a day.

GOODNIGHT.

posted by stacey @ Friday, July 07, 2006